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How Am I Not Myself

by The Way Out

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1.
Amanda Chase 02:54
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I can see the city lights Are going out since you left town Not saying that I miss you It's just this could be an issue For all the lonely people out there Trying to find their way home For all the drunks in the bars, Stumbling for the way out And I don't think it's very fair But don't think I'll take you back Cause I don't need you I regret every night I spent with you And every word that I said to make you feel Like you were something different Someone worth my time To move on I'm getting out of my head You'll never have me like you did back then Don't think I'll take you back Cause I don't need you You're just the thorn in my side Pulling me down, you're holding me down I can't forgive what you said Your words are, still ringing in my head In the blink of an eye You turned into Someone new and I never could be there for you Now you want to talk like we used to Ignoring the fact that you couldn't keep your legs shut I'll move on I'll get you out of my head You'll never have me like you did back then Don't think I'll take you back Cause I don't need you You're just the thorn in my side Pulling me down, you're holding me down I can't forgive what you said Your words are, still ringing in my head And we all hope That you never find your way back But we all know that you'll try so hard So, we'll all hope That you never find your way home And just so you know If you think I'll take you back Then I'm sorry
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One of Two 03:48
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Funny how I let myself believe You'd last more than the weekend And I know that you've been down the street Yeah you're down there hanging with your "best friend" Here I go again Over thinking living in a dream and There you go again Causing problems just for the attention If you let me in this time It's not to love you, but to fuck you And let you know what it felt like To be the one of the two , that you choose To wrap around your finger tips Wrap around your finger tips You taught me not to trust, anyone Like I use to, I'm walking through you I deserve better than this mess I still wish I could see you Falling back to the start Finding out just where you are Seeing life with open eyes Wondering how you got these scars So now you're done You say you want the real thing Like a dog eared page You came back to me I wasn't stuck on you like were dreaming I'll let you know exactly what I'm thinking If you let me in this time It's not to love you, but to fuck you And let you know what it felt like To be the one of the two , that you choose To wrap around your finger tips Wrap around your finger tips You taught me not to trust, anyone Like I use to, I'm walking through you I deserve better than this mess I still wish I could see you Falling back to the start Finding out just where you are Seeing life with open eyes Wondering how you got these scars
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Rookie Mistake 03:03
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Always looking through me Invisible and I've Become Isolated, I can't change it Always looking up at you Standing taller than the rest You said you'd stay But, you found better things to do I can't believe, I've been let down Again, for sure I know it's not you it's me You spread your lies, I can't deny They worked for a few times But I caught on with each line So its safe to say the jokes on me You left me all alone When I could barely stand on my own It helped me grow stronger I found that I'm no longer Wasting time on you The one thing that I'm prone to do I can't believe, I've been let down Again, for sure I know it's not you it's me You spread your lies, I can't deny They worked for a few times But I caught on with each line And it was a rookie mistake To let you back to this place They worked for a few times But, I caught in with each line And it was a rookie mistake To bring you back to this place
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Stories 02:24
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Drowning and I fear the end Is getting closer than we hoped it would be You're quoting lines you know from made up stories Trying to get back To my door I can't take this anymore You left the room You left us sore Contemplating What you're saying I know that its all a fucking joke to you But, that's the way you live That's just what you do You're not welcome in this town You love to bring me down I would have held you up But, you watched me drown Contemplating What you're saying I know that its all a fucking joke to you But, that's the way you live That's just what you do You brought this on yourself bringing me here Just to see if you made a mistake Well you did cause I'm standing right in front of you And you don't even want me here You don't even want me here
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Decades 03:06
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A decade from this coming may I didn't know how things would be I miss your smile, forgot your face Through the years a lot has changed Times flying by, memories run dry I just wanted time, to say goodbye I can't forget all the nights I stayed up What I'd give to get, You back Will you come down, I miss having you around I'm stuck here alone, Put me six feet underground Where will you be when I hit the bottle Where will you be when I hit the bottom My decade started off the same, Didn't hit me till I saw The epitaph on your grave Woe, it left me numb and… Still searching for, Words to describe I just wanted time, To say goodbye I can't forget all the nights I stayed up What I'd give to get, You back Will you come down, I miss having you around I'm stuck here alone, Put me six feet underground Where will you be when I hit the bottle Where will you be when I hit the bottom Times flying by, memories run dry I just wanted time, To say goodbye Still searching for, Words to describe I just wanted time, To say goodbye Will you come down, I miss having you around I'm stuck here alone, Put me six feet underground Where will you be when I hit the bottle Where will you be when I hit the bottom
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Gravity 03:17
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Go on and just say it I'm the orphaned son I'm the one who got left behind this time And even though I never blamed you I have guilt from letting go and it Haunts my dreams All the struggles they put you through Flashback memories There's no coming down, you're not coming back to me Gravity's weighing me down And I feel everything Your blank stare it burns through me Constantly scratching the surface to look for a hand But, no one is helping me Out, of this shit I got myself into this time I'm freaking out They just pretend to see what I see I am alone I wish you would come back and pick me up Stuck crawling on the ground And getting kicked while I'm down There's nothing you can do to save me Gravity's weighing me down And I feel everything Your blank stare it burns through me Constantly scratching the surface to look for a hand But, no one is helping me Out I'll tear my walls down I'll make sure everyone knows I'm gonna break down I know you know how it goes How it goes I'll tear my walls down I'll make sure everyone knows I'm gonna break down I know you know how it goes
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Unstable 03:44
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Is this what I let myself turn into I haven't slept in weeks again Act as if it's all pretend No one gets in And no one gets out I've been stuck inside my head for weeks Nothing makes me feel complete Like when I could Stand on my two feet Leech life from you Is all I'll ever do You're better off without me How am I not myself Unstable and Unable To be more than what I've become Those pills stay on the table They hit my head and label me I just need to get some sleep I just need to get some sleep Then maybe you'd come back for me Its' Unlikely,that you'd ever want to see me again All this time you let me think we were friends I let you in, I let you see The darker side of me That brings me to my knees You beg and start to plea Then just run away from me I wonder How am I not myself Unstable and Unable To be more than what I've become Those pills stay on the table They hit my head and label me I just need to get some sleep I just need to get some sleep I can't compete with my own head I've spent the last few years stuck inside my bed Not getting a single wink All I want is one night to dream How am I not myself Unstable and Unable To be more than what I've become Those pills stay on the table They hit my head and label me I just need to get some sleep I just want to sleep
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The Charlie Party 04:32
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You see when something's not working right, the best thing to do is tear it apart to make it better But, that won't happen, You're still stuck on him I know it got you so "far" So choke back that drink I know you're "just talking" He's pulling you back down and All I can do is stand around The girl I want is in his arms I thought you wanted to be saved I could have swore you wanted me I guess thats in the long run,I'm still plan B So choke back that drink I know you're "just talking" He's pulling you back down and All I can do is stand around The girl I want is in his arms Driving to the party and you ask me what to do I'll just sit back and watch you Try your luck another time Deaths on the tip of his tongue But all you can do is run Back to him and leave me hopeless He might as well be the gun That makes you feel like you're some Sort of lost cause, it leaves me speechless Don't choke back that drink I know you're not talking He's pulling you back down when I would do anything for you The girl I love is in your arms
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Make Believe 02:56
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I've been searching my whole life Just to trying find what you went looking for Now it seems that every time I get closer To the truth I find myself in your shoes Cause there so much more to do When you're living life for two I'm still that stupid kid Getting in the way of everything I know to help grow But, I can't make it on my own I'm set to explode Pieces of me ripped away By every fucking mistake I'm sleeping in just to dream about you Make believe it's real I wake up alone Inside a home that doesn't feel Like you were ever apart of it Did everyone forget I'm trying so hard to remember you And I'll stay on the inside I won't go through this life As if everything is a-okay You left with fake smile i know it's been awhile Since I could remember, remember That, I can't make it on my own I'm set to explode Pieces of me ripped away By every fucking mistake Cause, theres so much more to do When you're living life for two I'm still that stupid kid Getting in the way of everything I know to help me grow And I'll stay on the inside I won't go through this life As if everything is a-okay You left with fake smile I know it's been awhile Since I could remember
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Sterling 03:32
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When I see that look in your eyes I know that everything will be alright I'll have you by my side And when this world turns its back on me I know that you'll be there to hang around You'll never let me down Now and again I fall hard The countless times, you picked me up It's nice to know you have my back I'm so lost without you, I'm coming home This past month without you, took it's toll on me I'm not here to stay, I'll be there, it's only days away Till I see you in my drive way You brought out the best in me When I thought life was testing me out The next time that I see you I swear I'll never leave you alone Now and again I fall hard The countless times, you picked me up It's nice to know you have my back I'm so lost without you, I'm coming home This past month without you, took it's toll on me I'm not here to stay, I'll be there, it's only days away Till I see you in my drive way We won't stay apart
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How You Work 03:23
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I'm still chasing you behind my eye lids Can't stop to tell myself I can't have you back You don't want me back If I find you in the back of my mind Wake me up, please wake me up I wish you'd forgive and not forget And just run back to me But thats not how you work anymore I watched you leave You closed the door on me I never got to say I'll remember blue eyes And sleepless nights We spent in better days Those times are over We both grew older Is there nothing left to say I guess the hardest part for me Was watching myself sabotage Everything I lost your trust, so I could learn the hard way I'm losing frequency from who I use to be I wish you'd forgive and not forget And just run back to me But thats not how you work anymore I watched you leave You closed the door on me I never got to say I'll remember blue eyes And sleepless nights We spent in better days Those times are over We both grew older Is there nothing left to say I wish who I was today Could have a chance to hold you Have that chance to tell you "Every little thing is okay Close your eyes I'l be here in the morning" Cause I've been dying just to see your body In the sun, we're in your bed, its like nobody Else could make me break my neck You won't forgive but you'll forget Me, your moving on to other dudes And there is nothing I can do I'll try to improve But, i'll fucking lose Without you

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released February 7, 2015

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